My Dark Vanessa: A Novel

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"[An] exceedingly complex, inventive, resourceful examination of harm and power." --The New York Times Book Review, Editors' Choice

"A lightning rod . . . brilliantly crafted."--The Washington Post

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Exploring the psychological dynamics of the relationship between a precocious yet naïve teenage girl and her magnetic and manipulative teacher, a brilliant, all-consuming read that marks the explosive debut of an extraordinary new writer.

2000. Bright, ambitious, and yearning for adulthood, fifteen-year-old Vanessa Wye becomes entangled in an affair with Jacob Strane, her magnetic and guileful forty-two-year-old English teacher.

2017. Amid the rising wave of allegations against powerful men, a reckoning is coming due. Strane has been accused of sexual abuse by a former student, who reaches out to Vanessa, and now Vanessa suddenly finds herself facing an impossible choice: remain silent, firm in the belief that her teenage self willingly engaged in this relationship, or redefine herself and the events of her past. But how can Vanessa reject her first love, the man who fundamentally transformed her and has been a persistent presence in her life? Is it possible that the man she loved as a teenager--and who professed to worship only her--may be far different from what she has always believed?

Alternating between Vanessa's present and her past, My Dark Vanessa juxtaposes memory and trauma with the breathless excitement of a teenage girl discovering the power her own body can wield. Thought-provoking and impossible to put down, this is a masterful portrayal of troubled adolescence and its repercussions that raises vital questions about agency, consent, complicity, and victimhood. Written with the haunting intimacy of The Girls and the creeping intensity of Room, My Dark Vanessa is an era-defining novel that brilliantly captures and reflects the shifting cultural mores transforming our relationships and society itself.

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400 pages

Average rating: 7.46

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Anonymous
Nov 18, 2024
10/10 stars
Sad but beautiful story
Anonymous
Oct 01, 2024
8/10 stars
VERY dark and out of pocket. Such a good story line though and will keep you sucked in.
taryndevers
Sep 28, 2024
8/10 stars
“I can’t lose the thing I’ve held onto for so long. You know? I just really need it to be a love story. I really, really need it to be that. Because if it isn’t a love story, then what is it?” This is one of my favorite scenes in the book. Vanessa knows her trauma is catching up with her after years spent fighting tooth and nail to keep it at bay, but the only way she’s ever been able to cope with it is by viewing it through rose-colored glasses, and she’s finally able to admit this pattern to herself. Such a powerful scene, such a powerful book. Kate Elizabeth Russell you’re astonishing.
JShrestha
Aug 24, 2024
10/10 stars
The author took many years to create this book with a well worded warning that the book is purely fiction to avoid a dissection of her life and targeting anyone in it. Already starting on such a triggering relationship and the view jumping between present and past, the author really did a fantastic job or understanding how one gets in this path and the emotions that tie them to it. I think this book is a must read to understand others points of view and how ones needs and boundaries can be tested and misconstrued.
faetedfantasy
Aug 18, 2024
10/10 stars
What a whirlwind of emotions to go through from one book! I started the book not knowing what it was about. It usually takes me 3-4 days to finish a book this size, but this one took me double due to its intense storyline. The writing is amazing and made me feel like I was in Vanessa’s head the whole time, disturbing but exactly what I would want from a book!

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