Until I Die

ALCHEMISED meets THE HANDMAID'S TALE in this star-crossed dystopian romance by the author of LOVE SICK, Deidra Duncan.

In the ruins of a nation, two enemies risk everything for a chance at justice... and each other.

After the Fracture, nothing is safe-not love, not truth, and certainly not women. In the ashes of the fallen United States, the New American Order has seized power, silencing dissent and enslaving the vulnerable. To stop the spread of their evil, Sophia Reeves has given everything to the Defiance, a resistance force battling the NAO, but now, her general has another command: become a contact for an enemy officer-turned-spy. She understands the sacrifice this order requires. Association with a Blood Colonel is a death sentence-especially for a woman.

He's just a name at first. A whisper in the dark. But week by week, Lucas Scott becomes something more-dangerously unreadable, brutally efficient, and far too human for a man embedded in a regime that breaks people like her. Sophia expects cruelty. She prepares for betrayal. What she finds is a man haunted by secrets, driven by grief, and willing to burn the whole world down for a hope he's barely clinging to.

Their alliance is a fragile one, forged in shadow and drenched in danger. But as the Defiance grows closer to victory, their missions become deadlier, and the line between duty and desire blurs. Beneath the shadow of escalating war, Sophia and Lucas must decide what they're willing to sacrifice for a cause that might already be lost-and for a love they were never meant to find.

Hauntingly raw and achingly romantic, UNTIL I DIE is a story of rebellion, redemption, and the unbreakable will to love in a world that has forgotten how.

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Published Nov 28, 2025

484 pages

Average rating: 5.5

6 RATINGS

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Alaw23
Mar 21, 2026
2/10 stars
Maybe its a 2 because I just couldn't get into it. For me it was very predictable and the main character just seemed to just be whiny helpless while trying to seem tough to the point to where it was annoying (like pick me energy) Almost DNF 4- 5 times but pushed through. I loved the background details, the acton scenes, but the main character ruined it for me.
E_reader8
Jan 15, 2026
10/10 stars
Thank you to the NerdFam and Author Deidra Duncan for an ARC of this book! This book had me staying up too late, I had to know how it ended. It had me balling my eyes out. When I finished it, I thought I could go to bed, but I kept thinking about it. How could I describe it and convey how amazing it was and how it destroyed me and then put me back together? This book is set during a civil war in the US through the eyes of the defiance. When they explain how they got where they are and the ideals of their evil government, well it sounds a lot like what is currently going on in the US. Its scary to think this is where we could end up, if we don't speak up/fight back. The book follows our very relatable FMC, Sophia. She is not perfect but she also isn't whiny. She becomes the contact for an enemy turned spy (Lucas) and together they turn the tide of the revolution. She trains pretty hard, learning to fight and protect herself but she only marginally improves. She's not automatically great at it. She could be any one of us if put into this situation. While toppling the evil regime, they fall in love. Its not all happy endings. Check your trigger warnings for this one. In war, its not all black and white.

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