If He Had Been with Me

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An achingly authentic and raw portrait of love, regret, and the life-altering impact of the relationships we hold closest to us, this YA romance bestseller is perfect for fans of Colleen Hoover, Jenny Han, and Lynn Painter.

If he had been with me, everything would have been different...

Autumn and Finn used to be inseparable. But then something changed. Or they changed. Now, they do their best to ignore each other.

Autumn has her boyfriend Jamie, and her close-knit group of friends. And Finn has become that boy at school, the one everyone wants to be around.

That still doesn't stop the way Autumn feels every time she and Finn cross paths, and the growing, nagging thought that maybe things could have been different. Maybe they should be together.

But come August, things will change forever. And as time passes, Autumn will be forced to confront how else life might have been different if they had never parted ways...

Captivating and heartbreaking, If He Had Been with Me is perfect for readers looking for:

Contemporary teen romance books
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Published Nov 1, 2019

400 pages

Average rating: 6.65

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Anonymous

May 20, 2025

10/10 stars

I was so torn on my rating for this book. I agree with the 1-2 star reviews on almost every point made. It was mundane, repetitive, and the MFC made me want to scream because how could she not see? And yes the nickname 'Finny' for an 18 year old...

PaigeInABook00

May 10, 2025

8/10 stars

I have never sobbed this much from reading a book in my entire life!

avadacre77

Apr 20, 2025

8/10 stars

I wanted more than anything within me to be able to give this book 5 stars, but I just canât. I enjoyed it - I did - but I just canât. Iâve read worse books, Iâve read books that have made me cry less, Iâve read books with less emotion and Iâve read books that Iâve been less invested in finishing. But thatâs just it, the ending. I adored this book, even though it was slow at first and I trudged through a couple of chapters wondering how on earth her entire lifeâs story was necessary but how this author managed to give so much raw emotion and detail for so much of this book for the last chapters to entirely drop off - it ruined it for me it really did. I felt like I was reading an entirely different book after 80 chapters it just wasnât the same. I did enjoy it, I did love it, I did cry, I just needed more.

Slow reader_Som

Apr 15, 2025

4/10 stars

This book made me cry

Rebecca.01

Apr 13, 2025

2/10 stars

Horrible, I’m mad I wasted money and my time going to the store to buy this book