At Dark, I Become Loathsome

From Eric LaRocca--Bram Stoker Award-nominated and Splatterpunk Award-winning author of Things Have Gotten Worse Since We Last Spoke--comes At Dark, I Become Loathsome, a grim yet gentle, horrifying yet hopeful, intense tale of death, trauma, and love.

"If you're reading this, you've likely thought that the world would be a better place without you."

A single line of text, glowing in the darkness of the internet. Written by Ashley Lutin, who has often thought the same--and worse--in the years since his wife died and his young son disappeared. But the peace of the grave is not for him--it's for those he can help. Ashley has constructed a peculiar ritual for those whose desire to die is at war with their yearning to live a better life.

Struggling to overcome his own endless grief, one night Ashley finds connection with Jinx--a potential candidate for Ashley's next ritual--who spins a tale both revolting and fascinating. Thus begins a relationship that traps the two men in an ever-tightening spiral of painful revelations, where long-hidden secrets are dragged, kicking and screaming, into the light.

Only through pain can we find healing. Only through death can we find new life.

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Published Jan 28, 2025

240 pages

Average rating: 7.12

8 RATINGS

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Community Reviews

jpayne
Oct 30, 2025
8/10 stars
Dark - bit of plot twist at the end.
SpicyTofu
Oct 22, 2025
4/10 stars
I was honestly disappointed. This was kind of boring. All the reviews stating it was disturbing and a hard read, I guess I can see why people would say that, but to me, I was just bored lol. I found myself skimming through a lot of it. A lot of unnecessary scenes, stories, chat texts...I was just bored. at the end it got better which is why I put 3 stars, but it even ended badly.

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